perpetrating a fraud

Yasha and I still aren’t nursing yet. It is a little heartbreaking to have her reject me. But she is true to form. She is still tense and distrustful of us, but she’s relaxing more day by day.

I started trying to do a modified version of kangaroo care over the weekend. Yasha is much bigger and older than babies they recommend for strapping to your body. I have decided to take a few hours a day to lie skin to skin.

It agitates her at first, but she shows more interest in the breast than she would otherwise. And, sometimes, when she’s asleep, I can stick the nipple in, kinda like a pacifier.

Don’t you love serene breastfeeding pictures? Ours is a fraud, but we’ll fake it ’til we make it.